Sticks And Stones..

People say "sticks and stones may breka my bones, but words will never hurt me." Well...obviously these people have never been verbally attacked. Yes, being physically attacked really does hurt, and it can leave scars. But eventually these scars will fade, while the emotional pain of being verbally abused will never fade. I can remember a good amount of the horriable things people have said to me, trying to hurt me. Well, those words did hurt. A lot more than being physically beaten up. I may never have been beaten till I was black and blue, but I have been pushed in the halls, and I have fallen and I have gotten scars from running into the lockers. (and trust me, this wasn't because the halls are over crowded at NHS, its because this one girl who obv. has it out for me, tries her best to hurt me. I try my best not to let it bother me, and just ingore her in the hallways.

Physical or mental, pain is the same. Everything that happens will always stay with you. There is nothing you can do to erase the pain :/ Hopefully, down the road this pain will make you a stronger person. Eventually you will have the courage to speak about it to people, like I do. :)

rantt

so im gonnna rant right now :)

who ever thought being in high school would be so much work/drama? Having a date for the prom, having a boyfriend, being part of the "popular" clique, and getting AMAZING grades. How is one 17-year old girl suppose to handle all of that stress? You just need to take it one step at a time, they say, and it will all work out. Well, lets say your tired of taking life one step at a time, what do you do?

I'm sick of being the goody two shoes person everyone knows me as. I wanna spice things up, and just change myself up. But then I think to myself, why should I change myself to please other people? I'm only going to change for because I want to, and not because someone else wants me to.

It's a New Year, Which means it's a new me!

In 2010 I made a lot of mistakes. I met a lot of bitches, and people I really should not have hung out with.
I spent all my time in my "friends" shadows, trying to be what they wanted to be, instead of being my own
person. I learned that in 2010 I spent WAY to much time looking at the past. Well, 2011 is MY year. I am going
to live 2011 for me, and for nobody else. I DESERVE to be happy for once. :) I've lived my life for others the past
16 years, and now that I am almost 17 I think I need to start living for myself. I go to college in a year, and I can
not wait for this new start. I'm going to be this girl who stands up for herself, who doesn't give a damn what other
people say about her, and I am going to be a happy person :D
So, my new years resolutions are to be my own person, talk more in class, and not care what people say about me.
What are your new years resolutions?
HAPPY 2011 EVERYONE.