Shy. Quiet. Awkward. Those are three words you could use to describe me. On the outside I appear to be this girl who has her life put together, and knows where she is going in life. I appear to be happy with myself, I appear to fly by in life and not to have a care in the world.
The truth? On the inside I'm still hurting. I am not happy with myself, as a matter of fact, I hate myself. I am always getting called fake, copycat, loser and so many more hurtful terms. Do you know what it feels like to be put down on a daily basis by people you THINK are your best friends? Let me tell you, it is not a walk through the park. It hurts, but you just have to trudge through it with a smile because these are the only people who talk to you, and seem to "like" you.
Look at our school, our community, our society. What do you see? Perfect, popular, skinny girls. They have everything. Perfect body, perfect boyfriend, perfect friends, perfect grades, and perfect life. How am I suppose to be confident and independent when I see all of these girls who look the same, and look like they are having the time of their lives? You know what hurts the most? Seeing pictures of people at parties on facebook, and feeling really depressed and sad because you know you will NEVER be cool enough to be invited to one of those parties.
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